Showing posts with label Valya. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Valya. Show all posts

1.12.2011

Photo Fermata went shopping for a new outfit


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Photo Fermata went shopping for a new outfit and is still trying on the new duds before settling on the layout.  Thanks to Valya for helping me create one of my best images last year.

There are a few other minor changes to the blog look, but I think you can see the big changes at face value..
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1.06.2011

New frontiers

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Do you remember that precise moment in your life when you realized, acknowledged and knew, "I am in love."?  What about the first time you flew to another country and got off the airplane... and all the signs were different? 

I remember the moment when my dog, Paloma, took her last breath and died.  At that moment of transition I felt so suddenly alone, sad, and raw.  My favorite place in Montana is driving east along Highway 200 between Missoula and Great Falls and getting to that magic moment where the Rocky Mountains suddenly end and the Great Plains hits you with its great expanse.
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I am fleshing out an idea for a photo series.  It is still very abstract and nebulous to me.  The theme is "Borders, Boundaries, and Tipping Points".    As a psychology and education graduate, I've always been both perplexed and fascinated by that moment, location, feeling, event, etc., that signals the change or demarcation of what was and what is and will be.  We can see what came before and maybe even predict what comes after it, but what is special about that place, time, and experience that turns us around, points us in a into new direction, puts us in another country, or makes us realize we are in love or the love is gone.

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Even though these areas have always subconsciously interested me all my life, I never thought to formally explore them.  I stumbled upon this idea of trying to capture it after showing an artist/photographer friend these photos of Valya and Courtney.  He said, "Karl - these two photos are important.  They are threshold moments.  What is about to happen right now in each changes everything."


Where is that line in SF between the high-end Union Square area and its rough and dirty neighbor, the Tenderloin?  What is going through the mind of the beautiful woman at the moment where "yes" becomes the answer?  When is the point in time where an era ends and another one replaces it?  Where is that point when one more RPM destroys the engine?  At what point does that person in from of you become "one of us" or "one of them"? 

 Right now I am exploring the meaning for words like decision, boundary, border, etc., to find that gossamer of a moment where we pivot, retreat, or march ahead and all changes.  I need to figure out where these locations are in the world and in our minds.  The challenge will then be to figure out how to capture that moment. 

I encourage everyone to share moments of when everything changed, what made that instant powerful, and what did that exact moment mean to you.  You can share them in the comments section or send me an email at sidebphotography@gmail.com.

12.29.2010

Promises, promises, promises

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Many people look forward to the new year for a new start on old habits.  ~Author Unknown

Never tell your resolution beforehand, or it's twice as onerous a duty.  ~John Selden


The new year begins in a snow-storm of white vows.  ~George William Curtis


A new oath holds pretty well; but... when it is become old, and frayed out, and damaged by a dozen annual retryings of its remains, it ceases to be serviceable; any little strain will snap it.  ~Mark Twain, speech in New York City, 31 March 1885 

But can one still make resolutions when one is over forty?  I live according to twenty-year-old habits.  ~Andre Gide
 
May all your troubles last as long as your New Year's resolutions.  ~Joey Adams

He who breaks a resolution is a weakling;
He who makes one is a fool.

~F.M. Knowles


I made no resolutions for the New Year.  The habit of making plans, of criticizing, sanctioning and molding my life, is too much of a daily event for me.  ~Anaïs Nin
Oh, the old habit to make new ones takes to my mind this time of year.  What will I start doing?  Stop doing?  Do more of?  Do less of?  Who will I do more of with?  These are all parts of the resolutions I am looking at starting at midnight Saturday.


Health - A slow diet and increased activity to shed some unwanted Michelin affliction that returned last year.  The slow diets tend to work better since they help form better and longer lasting habits.  

I really enjoy getting out and being active.  I am vague about the type because I like doing many different ones.  The perfect activities include: hiking, biking, running, lifting, sex, kayaking, skiing, and many other activities.  The key is not to get into a rut of the same stuff.  I get bored pretty fast.
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Art - As I mentioned a few days back, I need to work on a few aspects of my photography.  
First, I need to take more photos.  I get rusty, complacent, and bored if I am not taking photos and creating *fine images from them.  I am trying to schedule time with a great model in early February. 


Second, I need to work on getting ready for my next stage of life and art, getting an MBA.  I've said enough about that journey in a prior post.  This includes financial planning and saving for paying for the jump to school.


Third, I need to see more art of others and learn what I can steal, appropriate, and use as influences in my stuff.


Fourth,  I need to increase my skills, especially Photoshop and other application abilities.  I don't believe in heavily manipulating my images and call it truth, but I don't mind messing them up and distorting their realities.  

As for all the other stuff... maybe 2012.


The only way to spend New Year's Eve is either quietly with friends or in a brothel.  Otherwise when the evening ends and people pair off, someone is bound to be left in tears.  ~W.H. Auden   


*"Fine" does not mean the same as the defined "fine print" for me.  It means I have refined it down to what I want it to be.  Whether it meets Ansel, Edward's, etc.,  criteria does not matter a whit to me.

PHOTO NOTES - God, how did I miss these?  I went through my photos of Valya tonight and these two were in the discard pile.  I found a bunch more that I tossed and am happy with. 

12.25.2010

As I sit

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It is a low-key Christmas.  I'm sitting in a Berkeley coffee shop while my wife is at mass at her uber-liberal Catholic parish.  I'm neither jolly, nor ho-ho-ho, but I am not a Grinch either.  After 41 Christmases, this day has little meaning to me other than a time to wish others well. 

I am not asking for a Christmas miracle to thaw my frozen heart.  My Christian belief does not rely on celebrating the false birthday of the religion's namesake.  The fact that the church moved it to be near a pagan solstice makes the date meaningless.  (I am not disparaging winter solstice, it is my favorite day of the year.)

Next year is tenuous.  Over half of the department I work in will be laid off.  We have four courses we will be tracked to.  1.  Job is safe for another year.  2. Job is cut immediately.  3.  Job will last x months until duties/responsibilities can be transferred or outsourced.  4.  Job is relocated and I have to move or quit.  We find out by January 31st.

My health has been declining for the past half year.  Most of it is self-inflicted due to handling stress poorly and adding more stress by my own stupidity to my life.  My life is no where near endangered in the short term, but I am doing a great job of taking a decade off it on the tail end.

My art is a high point.  I am excited about it.  I like the darker turn it has taken.  I am not just thinking of the images I made with Courtney, Valya and Moon, but in general.  I am starting to appreciate those tough bits of life around us that make us all the same, yet unique in how we approach them.

So, what are my plans for all this?  I need to take better care of myself.  That is going to be one of my two top priorities for 2011.  I need to find time to eat better, workout, and be outside. 

My other top priority is my art.  It takes two paths.  First, I need to actively and consistently creating and pushing it forward.  Second, I need to plan and implement strategies to get to the next steps - an MFA and teaching. 

Regardless of my job situation, I can work on these two areas.  I'd prefer to get laid off in 2012 since my wife will have her PhD and I can follow her to whichever university/college she teaches at.  The severance would be good seed money for helping with getting an MFA.  If I get the axe this year, I will simplify and find temporary jobs to maintain until I can move to the next step.  I guess if I get axed earlier, I will  have lots of time to exercise. 

So, I guess you were probably expecting a prophetic or (more likely) sappy Christmas message.  Not this year.  My wish for you though is based on the four gifts of faith - hope, joy, love, and peace.  I don't care if you are of my faith, another one, or none at all.  I think we all could use these four gifts.

12.16.2010

Unbearable lightness of coincidence???

Those who follow this blog know about two of my friends here, Carla and Valya (follow these links to read my Proust interviews with them).  Valya modeled for me in June and helped me follow my art in a new direction.  Carla is a long time friend of this blog. 

The coincidence - Carla's old alias was UL or Unbearable Lightness which comes from one of  her favorite books, The Unbearable Lightness of Being.  She used this alias for years at her blog, What We Saw Today.  This morning, Valya published a post with the title Unbearable Lightness of Being along with a photo of her posing in an amazing yoga stretch position that communicates strength, flexibility, and grace all in one.

As a part time scientist, I believe in "pure coincidence" as well as the opposite of it.  For now though, I like seeing two parts of my life intersect, however briefly and potentially coincidentally. 

12.15.2010

Two years on...

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This blog is a toddler.  It is starting to walk on its own and speak simple thoughts.  Since December 15, 2008, this blog has:
  • been reborn not once, but twice and been renamed three or four times.
  • 371 published posts still accessible
  • 60 published posts deleted due to self censorship, poor writing, culling, and other issues
  • 123 draft posts that were never published
  • 15,070 visits
  • 50,558 pages visited
  • an average reader spending 2 minutes and 33 seconds per visit.
  • visitors from 114 countries
  • one evil offspring/brother blog, Hear Me Roar. - A stuttering attempt at validating, defending, and defining masculinity.
  • are you bored yet with the "greatness"stats???  I am.

I read last years post, One year on and got bored in the first few paragraphs.  I wrote last year about all the changes in substance, style, yada yada yada.    I am not as sentimental about this blog now as I was a year ago. 

Moi, but I've changed since then
My art has changed in the past year.  I've given up the notion that I want to be another Edward Weston, Ruth Bernhard, or Imogen Cunningham.  You can read more about that here.  I am more interested in mixing it up with a sprinkle of those giants, a bit of Robert Frank, a dash of Bob Guccione (RIP) and lots of my own psyche.  I am less into celebrating the aesthetic art of the form and more into what the context of the moment means.

My two highlights for the year were trips to Rome and New York City.  In Rome I found my spirit.  In New York I found my soul.  Both changed me forever.

Over the years I've made friends along the way, interviewed a few of them, and savored the comments they shared.  Thanks to Carla, Joe, Terrell, Valya, Alex, Z,  and many others.

So, enough rambles.  Here are my favorite photos of 2010.  You may disagree, but all of these are personal, beautiful, and somehow changed me.  Some more than others, but they were important.  Thanks to locations for being open to me.  Thanks to the models for opening themselves to me.

Hit the Road Jack - 

Rome 




Wells, Nevada



 Joshua Tree National Park



 New York City




 




Las Vegas, NV



California Delta and Foothills 





Models, muses, beauty, and truth





























Courtney







 

12.13.2010

Simple

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As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler; solitude will not be solitude, poverty will not be poverty, nor weakness weakness. Henry David Thoreau


Everything should be made as simple as possible, but not simpler. Albert Einstein


For every problem there is a solution which is simple, clean and wrong. Henry Louis Menken

12.07.2010

Quiet Treatments

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A quiet mind cureth all. Robert Burton

Looking for a quiet day here and this photo of Valya (in its two treatments) captures the mood perfectly for me.

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12.05.2010

Others' words.

I am enjoying a clear morning break after days of rain and gray.  I love the dark days and the rain, but the sunny Berkeley morning is nice too.

My friend Valya posted one of our harsh photos on her blog and wrote a great bit of prose that summarizes our work.  I highly recommend you visit her blog.  Her work can be soft and sensual or rough with jagged sharp edges, and everything in between.  Her words are important and used sparingly to keep from overstating the point.  One of my goals is to work with her again in the next year.  She is a true artist.


Alex wrote a powerful post on erotic imagery, pornography, and a potentially new form of racism.  I guess one purpose of art is to push boundaries and expose truths in society.  Too bad some of those truths still live.

11.28.2010

psst... not bragging... but my photos are in a book... and other stuff to chat about.


Hurray! - My New York stuff is finally in a book.  My fellow photographers from the local college and I produced a book of  our June trip to New York.  We submitted six photos each for the book.  You can see some of the great photos of people I've mentioned in this blog, including, Courtney, Mollee, Ron and Andrea.  I am proud of my photos and believe my fellow contributors put in their best stuff.  Valya and Moon didn't make it,  since those photos didn't fit the theme and feel of the book, although a couple were considered.   You can read my summary of the New York trip here.  You can also read about the tough photo selection process here. 

Sorry about yesterday's rant.  I am trying to stay away from politics in this blog, but some days are tiresome.

It rained hard yesterday in my area of California.  I love seeing how the world looks on a dark rainy day through a wet windshield.  It is how the world is.

We drove to Sacramento and went to the newly renovated Crocker Art Museum.  If you went to it before the grand re-opening, it was great regional art museum that drew some impressive shows.   With the remodel, they doubled exhibit space and have an amazing series of exhibits on African and Asian art, modern and postmodern art, European classics and one of the best western US and California landscapes paintings  and sculpture collections.  It is well worth the $10 adult admission.  The Wayne Thiebaud exhibit was may favorite.

Hogs and Heifers Bar- NYC 2010

11.08.2010

On break

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Work and personal life is really crazy for me and I have to focus on them.  I plan to return in two weeks.   Please visit the most popular posts listed over on the right side under the heading, "You liked this????".  I will also post an occasional photo and quote just to keep something fresh.

Thanks to our veterans.  Your service is greatly appreciated.

10.27.2010

Drops from above

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Drops from the sky fall
Our hearts peer inward for love
Our hands trespassing

10.26.2010

Don't spoil it with words

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I am working on a post inspired by a great essay written by photographer Robert Adams about how difficult photographers find it to write about their own art.  It is a very enlightening essay.

With that said, why devalue the image above with words?  They just get in the way.

10.18.2010

Clip Show - good articles, short movie review

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Silence is the safest course for any man to adopt who distrusts himself - François de la Rochefoucauld
Work is killing me right now.  In lieu of my little ramblings, I offer up a plentiful helping of some interesting reads from other sources.



I watched The Men Who Stare at Goats last night.  It is a light comedy with some interesting views on soldiers, war, blind faith in causes, and super powers.  Kevin Stacey, George Clooney, Ewan McGregor, and Jeff Bridges play their parts well.  This is not a paradigm changing war movie.  It is just a funny movie that left me with some interesting questions.  Men Who Stare... is worth a view if it comes on cable and Netflix (currently available through instant queue).


Welcome to a new week.


PHOTO NOTE: Valya exudes a powerful, quiet  erotic allure.  I really need to get back to New York to work with her again.




10.10.2010

Into the light

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I photographed a new model last week.  Elyse is a daughter of a friend and offered to help on my color assignment for my class.  We had to create three photographs with a person, object, and place while  keeping an eye on three different types of color palettes (9 total photos).  The color palettes were monochromatic (different shades of the same color), analogous (neighbors on the color wheel), and complimentary (opposites on the color wheel).

She was fun to work with.  We experimented with what emotions and feelings color elicits from us.  I then projected the colors on her.  Feeling and sharing an emotion can be a challenge, especially for new aquaintences.  Elyse opened up and shared. 

We then had a challenge when we had two or three colors and tried blending emotions.   To prepare this, I photographed her in one color, then the other, so she could get into the individual moods.  At the end, I put both colors on her and had her blend the feelings.  My favorite blend was purple (arrogance) and green (envy). 
It is fun to play with color and emotions.  Good painters and photographers know how important color is.  So do advertisers.  Each color has a purpose for being there, whether it is accuracy in depiction of the scene or to elicit emotions, the creator put it there for a reason.

Joe Crachiola is a brilliant photographer who is a master at finding the perfect colors in a photo to accentuate the content, context, and theme.  I highly recommend going to his blog to see his work and read his posts.  He is a true artist in both photography and sharing his written observations of life. 

I've been de-saturating photos lately so only a kiss of the color is there or the photo goes to pure black and white.  One exception is my work with Valya and Moon where I projected a red spray painted wall photo on them and then had them get into their own mind space for each photo.  The visual punch of red streaking around their naked bodies is a harsh violence that makes their expressive poses that much harder to look at.

Working with rich saturated colors was a treat.  I am not sure if this will become a part of my style, but I am slowly mastering a new tool.  Thank you Elyse.  I hope we work together again.  You were fantastic!